More writing, everyone. The song embedded is sort of reminiscent of my mood. The #daretowrite challenge is pretty fun, and if you're interested - check it out live here. Maybe you'll help me choose my next prompt.
x Hannah
x Hannah
#113 sinner
they told me I expected too much
I wanted so much
but they were small things:
the brush of lips against mine, fingers intertwined
walking down a sunlit street together
sharing a smile over cups of coffee and cigarettes
they told me I didn't deserve those things
that I was envious of people who were normal
people that got those things, that weren't damaged
because apparently, my damage made me unworthy
and sooner or later they burned that thought into my brain
with every bruise they left me
apparently I was greedy for wanting those things
for aching to be normal like them
for disdaining those who complained about nothing and belittled me
they said my anger was irrational , they said it was undeserved
they said I was too proud for someone who was 'apparently' damaged
apparently all I did was wallow in my misery
but if I'm all of these things - then I'd rather be a sinner
I'd rather be a sinner than a false saint
spinning lies and proclaiming myself saviour
claiming to be a knight and martyring myself at the expense of others
if I am a sinner, then I am a weapon
and these people will regret taking their eyes off of me.
they told me I expected too much
I wanted so much
but they were small things:
the brush of lips against mine, fingers intertwined
walking down a sunlit street together
sharing a smile over cups of coffee and cigarettes
they told me I didn't deserve those things
that I was envious of people who were normal
people that got those things, that weren't damaged
because apparently, my damage made me unworthy
and sooner or later they burned that thought into my brain
with every bruise they left me
apparently I was greedy for wanting those things
for aching to be normal like them
for disdaining those who complained about nothing and belittled me
they said my anger was irrational , they said it was undeserved
they said I was too proud for someone who was 'apparently' damaged
apparently all I did was wallow in my misery
but if I'm all of these things - then I'd rather be a sinner
I'd rather be a sinner than a false saint
spinning lies and proclaiming myself saviour
claiming to be a knight and martyring myself at the expense of others
if I am a sinner, then I am a weapon
and these people will regret taking their eyes off of me.